It's all about you :)

OK, I know I promised chapter two, but I already gave you all so much! Ruby's profile is up and I think it's pretty interesting. Oh, and I updated Michael's profile too coz' I realised it's lacking some basic info. Go check that out too:)! This is just a filler I felt like writing:P


Well, this is dedicated to you-know-who, in hopes that it will help you :)


I keep reading the stuff you write, and, erm, I don't know whether I should feel sad or happy or indifferent or guilty... I think I should have helped, but, maybe... haiz, I don't know..


Ok, you know what, I shall write this in the third person point of view.


When A likes B, and B thinks of A only as a friend, it can get pretty awkward. But, things will only get more awkward if A stops talking to B and starts thinking too much. A should always take the initiative to try and bridge the gap, because it can get really difficult for B to do it. 


Trust me, I know. But, I've seen "B"s who are RREEAALLYY nice and will try to say hi and stuff to their respective "A"s but if the "A"s keep thinking about how awkward everything is, nothing will get done and you will end up with the typical ruined friendship. 


So, whether you're an A or a B, you should try to bridge the gap. Talking things through, try to understand each other. 


To all the As out there, I know how you feel. It can get really sad at times. Sometimes, you just want to sit there in front of them and cry. Then, you realise that even if you do that, they probably won't care and, at most, they will pat you on the back and tell you it's ok. 


THEY ARE LYING! Who are they kidding? IT'S OK???!! SAID WHO?? Yup it is DEFINITELY NOT OK! But, here's the sad part: The only one who knows this and feels it, is you :( Yup, I've been there.. twice... and I know how the crushing depression can rreaallyy get to you. It sucks, big time. 


But I learnt, after the second experience (dammit) that the only person that can save you is yourself. You got to face that sadness yourself, and make one of two choices :1) Just.. Let go ( this is REALLY hard, I tried, but then the thought of not having that kind of emotion towards anyone, that short period of time when you haven't found a new love yet, that thought scared me, and I couldn't face it so I gave up ). If you are strong enough, do it! Trust me, you'll be a lot better off:)  


Choice number 2) Keep holding on. It seems like there's hope at first. And then, when you really crave that emotional satisfaction, you'll start seeing signs, signs that they like you already. You'll feel soo happy. On top of the world. But... the higher you climb, the harder you fall. I fell. Twice I think. But I'm still climbing. I'm an idiot, don't listen to me;) 


Trust me, if you try to keep holding on, you will keep hurting. It's like you're climbing a mountain and some f*ck*ing a**hole poured oil over the whole thing. You'll keep falling, and if you struggle further to the top, you'll lose strength and fall AGAIN, harder this time. So, if you're willing to keep going, I salute you my friend, good luck. If you give up and successfully let go, I'll respect you for doing something I couldn't. It's really your call. So good luck I say! 


My dear friends (I suddenly realise that there are two people who can find help in this post, I'm awesome XD), I've been both A and B, more than once for each one. I can just tell you that either choice won't be easy, but YOU made the choice to start in the first place. It's really up to you and no one else to settle this. 


Oh, and remember, it's only the "A"s (the people who are crushing on B) that will feel the awkwardness. But this awkwardness will push the Bs away in a silent but powerful wave. You have to be the one to stop that wave, so good luck!


Yours truly,
Josh:)